Last time at the therapist I was told that I should focus less on looking for work online and in newspapers, and rather focus on building a (real life) social network and try to get a job that way. I was a bit lost for words when I was told that, as my therapist is well aware I’m an introvert and shows great understanding for that.
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Have I become an old boring geek?
Last night I went to the monthly 2600 meeting in Brisbane. We played a few rounds on Quake Arena and later on talked about different geek and hacker topics. I had fun, but not as much fun as I expected.
I’ve always had an interesting in hacking and trying to make gadgets and such do more than it’s expected to do. Yesterday I drifted away when they were talking about wifi sniffing and cracking. Well, I listened with one ear, but I didn’t feel as interested as I might have been 10+ years ago.
I’m not sure if I’m losing interest, or if my focus is shifting to something that everyone can benefit from.
I’ve always been interested in telecommunication, so exploiting wifi is interesting, but not something I would go around doing everyday. My focus has always been more focused on transportation and spreading information securely. Be it words or raw data.
I think it’s safe to say that I find social engineering and media hacking more interesting and useful in the long run. Don’t get me wrong, keeping focus on how to better improve wireless security is important; but can that be used to change the world?
Also I don’t tinker as much as I used to. I just browse around the web, reading news and randomly posting an article now and then.
Honestly I don’t know where I’m heading with this article, but I’ll try to sum it up in the next paragraph.
I think I’ve just become too tired of always tinkering with stuff without no purpose. I spent maybe an hour to fix the sound issue in Fedora 11, thanks to a great howto; but that had an actual meaning and end result. I do have a few ideas on how to change this, but I’ll air those ideas later or never.
Live long and prosper.
Did I get laid off because I am an introvert?
I can honestly say I hated the job and that I’ve met my emotional limit when it comes to call centres. As my therapist said, ‘a call centre is one of the worst places for an introvert’.
As I didn’t like the job I couldn’t care less about explaining what really happened that day, as I actually was relieved knowing I wasn’t going back to that hell.
I almost had it.
This morning I felt okay, but mostly because I knew I wouldn’t be on the phone as we were having a written test today. We had to go on the phone the last 45min, but for some reason it just went down hill from there.
Managed to take two calls, as I dragged out the time between to, trying not too go available. I hate being like this and I really hate my job.
This is not why I came to Australia. I didn’t come here to work in yet another call centre that just drags me down in the mud.
Had a really good idea for an article, but now I just don’t have the motivation to write it.
Can’t afford to resign either, so I’m trapped at this job; until I get a new one…
Who said that?
For the last week, or maybe even two, there have been a few moaning posts on my Tumblr and Twitter account. I could pretend my accounts got hacked, but they didn’t. It was me, but really not, if you understand what I mean.
I honestly don’t know what to do right now.
At the moment I honestly don’t know what to do. I finally got a job, but it’s not what I hoped it to be. It sounded great, but it I’m back doing the same old thing; taking calls for a company that expect me to teach myself.
Some of my friends have called me an autodidact as I easily can teach myself things, that I have an interest for. That is if I’m given the adequate material and time I need to do so. Throwing me out in the deep-end and hoping I’ll eventually get my head above water doesn’t work well with me.
As I’ve mention earlier is that the good thing that has come out of this is that I’m extremely motivated to go back to school now.
I’m hoping to get my school papers very soon so I can finally apply and get a degree and get a real job.
I don’t want to into detail about my new job, but it has a really horrible affect on my IBS. I’m also quite moody lately. At the moment I don’t know if I will get accepted at school, and I’m not sure how easy it will be to find a new job.
This is far from a job for an introvert. Being told that you have to dress a certain way and speak a certain way on the phone. I’m sorry, but I’m not a yes-man.
At the moment I have no clue what I’m going to do. We need money and I still haven’t been able to pay off my BMX. At least with the BMX I would get out more and have fun.
So far life in Australia hasn’t turned out as I expected it to be.
I’m doing the same thing I did in the Netherlands, just for less money and a lot more stress.
Live long and prosper.
To all you kids out there, stay in school!
Note: As you can see, my tumblr is a bit more personal.
I need a new routine.
I’ve just been working at my new job for three weeks and I’m not looking forward starting the fourth week tomorrow. I think I’ve reached my limit when it comes to working at a call centre.
I’m hoping to get all my school papers within the end of this month, at least, so I can apply at one of the universities here. It’s the first time I’m actually looking forward to go back to school and be a poor student. At least when I have my degree I can get a real job instead.
I’m also not sure if I should continue playing UniWar or of I should sit down with OpenTTD. OpenTTD takes time, and I will just end up forgetting time and be totally wrecked tomorrow. I’ll see what I end up with any way.
To blog or to idle, that is the question.
While I’ve been running around this morning, trying to get things done so we have moderate clean apartment when 1azylizzie comes home from the RSPCA, I’ve been playing around with an article I’ve wanted to write for some time now.
What annoys me now is that I really feel I’m back at work again. Weekends are too short and I’m too tired to do anything productive. Just trying to do lazy and relaxing activities. I do find writing relaxing, or I wouldn’t be writing this, but when I want to write an article that is less personal and more informative I want to do a really good job. At the moment I don’t feel I have the mental energy to do it, because I need to recharge my batteries more as I will be on the phones the next whole week.
I will have another cuppa and think about it though.
